Not everything was bad. Some of it shaped me in good ways. Some of it taught me discipline, community, and music that still hits different.

In this episode I talk about what I let go of… and what I decided to keep.

Because this story isn’t about anger. It’s about figuring out who you are after the noise dies down.

There wasn’t some big dramatic moment where everything fell apart. It was slow. Questions that didn’t go away. Doubts that got louder. Realizing I didn’t believe the same things anymore and not knowing who I was without them.

I talk about what it’s like to lose your faith identity while everyone around you still thinks you’re the same person.

It’s uncomfortable. But it’s honest.

The music, the emotional highs, the moments where the lights dimmed and the bridge repeated twelve times until somebody cried. I talk about the pressure of performing spirituality and what it felt like when the “presence” didn’t show up.

Some of it’s funny. Some of it’s heavy. All of it’s real.