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The Cost of the Superhero Cape with Coach Cassie J

Wed, 30 Apr 2025 09:00:22 GMT

If you’ve ever felt trapped by the invisible expectation to “save everyone” — even when you’re falling apart inside — this episode was made for you.

Today, we welcome the amazing Coach Cassie C. James Weathersby, founder of Black Women Do Heal, for a soul-stirring, truth-telling conversation about the real cost of living like a superhero. Together, we dive deep into why exhaustion is not a badge of honor, why setting Peace Protectors (aka boundaries) is critical, and why resting is a human right, not a weakness.

Guest: Cassandra C. James-Weathersby

Website: BlackWomenDoHeal.org

0:00–1:25 | Welcome + Trigger Warning

1:25–2:39 | Meet Our Superhero: Coach Cassie C. James Weathersby

2:39–8:50 | The Superhero Complex Explained

8:50–13:08 | The Cost of Wearing the Cape

13:08–16:45 | Why The Superhero Model Fails

16:45–23:07 | First Steps: Removing the Cape

23:07–28:07 | You Are Human, Not Superhuman

28:07–36:09 | Boundaries Reframed: “Peace Protectors”

36:09–43:38 | Permission to Rest

43:38–49:57 | Lessons from Hospice Care: Prioritize Living Fully

49:57–54:25 | Healing Events & Black Women Do Heal Initiatives

54:25–1:03:02 | Real Talk: Entrepreneurship, Social Media, and Letting Go

1:03:02–1:07:10 | Closing + Final Mic Drop Moments

Saying "Thank You" to the Anger with BPD Warrior Alice

Wed, 23 Apr 2025 15:54:43 GMT

Alice Hyoung, who shares her deeply personal journey through trauma, loneliness, medication, and identity healing. From childhood dissociation to sacred rage, Alice unpacks what it means to live with borderline personality disorder and still find joy, purpose, and peace. This episode dives into spiritual shifts, medication without shame, the power of safe spaces, and the radical truth that you are not your diagnosis. If you’ve ever felt unseen, unhealed, or misunderstood—this episode will remind you that your story isn’t over.

#BPDWarrior #MentalHealthMatters #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SacredAnger #HealingJourney #TraumaRecovery #MentalHealthPodcast #ShowMeGrace

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

• Alice

Main Topics & Time Stamps

🔹 00:00:00–00:01:30 | Opening & Trigger Warning

🔹 00:01:35–00:04:10 | Meet Alice Yang

🔹 00:04:10–00:06:30 | Mental Health Check-In & Daily Intentions

🔹 00:06:30–00:10:00 | Childhood Experiences & Internalized Shame

🔹 00:10:00–00:13:00 | Unexpressed Anger & Internalization

🔹 00:13:00–00:15:00 | Rage Rooms & Releasing Anger Safely

🔹 00:15:00–00:17:50 | Therapy Barriers for People with BPD

🔹 00:17:50–00:20:05 | The Power of Compassionate Presence

🔹 00:20:05–00:24:50 | Letter to 8-Year-Old Self & Religious Trauma

🔹 00:24:50–00:30:00 | Medication, Shame & Breakthroughs

🔹 00:30:00–00:32:47 | Workbook & Anger as Sacred

🔹 00:32:47–00:41:00 | Healing Is Wholeness, Not a Destination

🔹 00:41:00–00:45:00 | Remission vs. Recovery + Final Thoughts

🔹 00:45:00–00:48:36 | Closing Messages & Resources

Websites:

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BPD resources and crisis support

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Radical Acceptance: Lauren’s Rosier's Journey with BPD and the Power of One True Friend

Wed, 16 Apr 2025 15:55:41 GMT

Episode Twenty-Two:

In today’s episode, we’re joined by Lauren Rosier, a passionate advocate and writer who opens up about her journey living with borderline personality disorder — from early signs in childhood to the life-saving role of DBT, music, and meaningful friendships.

This conversation is raw, validating, and filled with the kind of insights you don’t hear enough about. So whether you're in the middle of your own storm or standing beside someone who is, you’ll find connection and hope right here.

Let’s dive in.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Lauren

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/laurenxlee1

Email: lerosier@gmail.com

Podcast Episode Outline:

00:00:44 – Podcast introduction: 'I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right'

00:01:30 – Guest intro: Lauren shares her background and diagnosis

00:02:30 – Lauren discusses current projects (memoir and BPD resource book)

00:03:38 – Lauren's motivation for sharing her story – friendship with Tony

00:05:11 – First signs of being ‘different’ in childhood – obsessive crush

00:08:03 – Reflections on adolescence – introversion, lack of diagnosis

00:09:59 – Deeper discussion on introversion – innate or protective

00:12:15 – Advice Lauren would give to her 8-year-old self

00:13:23 – Using music and playlists for emotional regulation

00:16:30 – The role of sports and teamwork in recovery

00:19:27 – Importance of outlets for managing BPD symptoms

00:22:10 – What Lauren wishes loved ones understood about BPD

00:25:59 – Advice to 88-year-old self: radical acceptance and growth

00:32:14 – Final message: DBT is key, medication alone isn’t enough

00:33:14 – How to contact Lauren

00:34:10 – Closing mantra + mental health reminder

00:35:03 – Encouragement to stay connected and submit stories

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Credits:

Host, Producer & Research: Nicole Darbypresspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

I Chose to Stay: A BPD Warrior’s Story

Wed, 09 Apr 2025 09:00:35 GMT

Tune in to part 3 of a most riveting and raw interview with a woman of color and BPD Warrior. From crisis action plans to disability battles, and the quiet heroism of choosing to stay alive one day at a time—this episode goes beyond surface-level mental health talk. You’ll hear about the healing power of deep house music, the bittersweet joy of love with BPD, and the fire it takes to fight for your life while the world tells you you're “too much” and the healthcare system says you’re “not enough” to be disabled?

Podcast Episode Breakdown: "I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right"

00:00–01:07 Intro

01:07–01:30 Trigger Warning & Resources:

01:30–03:02 Art as a Lifeline:

03:02–04:23 Loss of Creative Outlets:

04:23–05:54 Support System & Love:

05:54–07:03 Misplaced Blame & Accountability:

07:03–08:27 In-the-Moment Struggles:

08:27–09:57 Hopelessness & Survival Fears:

09:57–11:53 Reframing Self-Worth:

11:53–12:35 Summary of Key Lessons:

12:35–14:18 Shame & Blame:

14:18–16:47 Disability as a Lens:

16:47–18:16 Applying for Disability:

18:16–20:01 Systemic Challenges:

20:01–22:02 Being "Too Much":

22:02–23:31 Trauma Roots of BPD

23:31–25:31 Survival & Resilience: .

25:31–26:54 Vision Boards & Healing Rituals:

26:54–28:45 The Power of Choice:

28:45–30:40 Misguided Crisis Responses:

30:40–32:21 Judgment vs. Compassion:

32:21–34:54 Staying Anonymous & Promoting BPD Melanin:

34:54–35:59 Wrap-Up & Affirmations:

35:59–36:43 Outro

Credits:

Press Pause, Inc. website: www.showmegrace.org

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Living Loud with BPD: Black, Intuitive, and Unapologetic

Wed, 02 Apr 2025 16:52:19 GMT

What does it really feel like to live with Borderline Personality Disorder—especially as a Black woman in a world that doesn’t always see you, hear you, or believe you?

In this second part of this raw and unfiltered episode, we go deep into the inner world of a BPD warrior. From hyper-intuition and emotional whiplash in relationships, to the aching loneliness of being unseen in mental health spaces, this conversation is brutally honest, unexpectedly funny, and deeply human.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

• A BPD Warrior - A Woman of Color

In this episode, you will hear:

• 00:00:00 – 00:01:20 Opening Message & Trigger Warning

(Beginning of Interview)

•00:01:30 – 00:04:00 Hyper-intuition and Emotional Triggers

00:04:00 – 00:06:10 Validation of Intuition

00:06:20 – 00:09:20 BPD and the Intersectionality of Race

00:09:20 – 00:11:00 Relationship Challenges & Internal Conflict

00:11:00 – 00:13:00 Lighter Moment – Pet Cameo

00:13:00 – 00:14:30 Viola Davis Quote & 8-Year-Old Self

00:14:30 – 00:19:30 Creative Outlets as Healing Tools

00:19:30 – 00:21:19 Closing Encouragement & Resources

Episode Resources:

• Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Too Sensitive or Superpowered?” A Raw Conversation with a Person of Color Living with BPD

Wed, 26 Mar 2025 09:00:51 GMT

Episode Seven

In this deeply honest and unexpectedly hilarious episode, a courageous (and anonymous) Black woman shares her lived experience with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). From feeling “too much” as a teen to navigating abandonment in therapy, she holds nothing back—and proves that being emotionally intense doesn’t make you broken, it makes you powerful.

We explore early signs, misdiagnoses, codependency, attachment, impulsive coping, and the deep empathy that often gets overlooked in people with BPD. Oh—and we laugh a LOT along the way.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Connect with her on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bpdmelanin/

Episode Topic Timeline (Approximate)

00:00 – 01:00 — Opening statement about the fear and stigma of BPD; introduction and trigger warning
01:00 – 03:00 — What it’s like to feel “different” from a young age
04:00 – 06:30 — Emotional intensity and being told "you're too sensitive"
06:45 – 08:30 — Diagnosis story: Being diagnosed at 22 and the rarity of early recognition
08:30 – 10:30 — Misdiagnoses, PTSD, and feeling like “too much” for therapists
10:30 – 12:30 — Abandonment by a therapist and the emotional fallout
12:30 – 15:00 — Discussion on broken mental health systems and trying to trust again
15:00 – 18:30 — Coping mechanisms: impulsivity, codependency, fear of rejection
18:30 – 21:30 — Romantic attachment patterns, rage episodes, and self-awareness
21:30 – 24:00 — Hypersexuality, emotional regulation, and what's misunderstood in BPD
24:00 – 27:00 — Reclaiming BPD as a superpower: deep empathy, intuition, and resilience
27:00 – 29:00 — Affirmation mantra + invitation to visit showmegrace.org for support

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby

Jade Stanton - Helping Women with BPD Stay Committed to a Life Worth Living

Wed, 19 Mar 2025 14:53:13 GMT

Today's episode features Jade Stanton - BPD Coach & Warrior.

In this uplifting and educational episode, BPD Coach Jade Stanton joins the conversation to share her powerful story of early diagnosis, navigating recovery, and turning her pain into purpose. Diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder at just 16, Jade opens up about the emotional intensity of adolescence, the science behind the BPD brain, and why remission—not perfection—is the goal.

Listeners will learn why DBT is powerful but not the only path, how access to the right support can be life-changing, and why BPD recovery must be person-centered. Jade’s insights are honest, encouraging, and deeply validating for anyone navigating life with BPD—or supporting someone who is.

Major Topic Timeline (Approximate)

00:00 – 01:15 — Welcome message and trigger warning
01:30 – 03:00 — Meet Jade Stanton: BPD coach, warrior, and advocate
04:00 – 06:30 — Diagnosed at 16: What led to an early BPD diagnosis
06:30 – 08:00 — Importance of a comprehensive psychiatric evaluation
08:00 – 11:00 — What’s happening in the BPD brain during an episode (in layman’s terms)
11:00 – 13:00 — The power of being understood by an expert (Okeechobee, FL shoutout!)
14:00 – 16:00 — Is DBT the only effective treatment for BPD? Debunking the myth
16:00 – 19:00 — Individualized care + Recovery as a lifelong journey
19:00 – 22:00 — Jade’s path to coaching: Filling the resource gap with compassion
22:00 – 24:30 — The global reach of her BPD community and online support
25:00 – 26:30 — Jade’s letter to her 8-year-old self: “Your brain will lie to you.”
27:00 – 29:00 — Jade's message to her 88-year-old self: “I hope you're having fun.”
31:00 – 33:00 — Final reflections: Recovery is about your life, not just a diagnosis
33:00 – 35:00 — How to connect with Jade & join her thriving online community
35:00 – End — Podcast mantra, closing thoughts, and support resources

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby

Healing Through Understanding: A Therapist's Journey with Borderline Personality Disorder

Wed, 12 Mar 2025 09:00:19 GMT

In a compelling episode of Nicole's podcast, licensed clinical social worker Sarah Abbott opens up about her unique perspective as both a mental health professional and someone living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Their conversation reveals valuable insights about therapy approaches, finding proper support, and redefining identity beyond diagnosis.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

• Sara Abbott, MSW, LCSW, LICSW https://www.thewellnesswayllc.com/home

• Sarah hosts the "Bold Beautiful Borderlands" podcast and can be found on Instagram at @borderlinefromhell, with her podcast at @boldbeautifulborderline

In this episode, you will hear:

• 0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

• 1:28 Sara’s Introduction

• 4:09 11 Years of Pre-Suicide and Post-Suicide Behavior?

• 11:21 How Trauma Informs Her Perspective?

• 12:08 Not Being in Therapy as a Therapist

• 13:26 What in the World is Holistic Bio Psychosocial Approach to Therapy?

• 16:56 Why Aren’t All Medical and Mental Health Providers Using Cross Systems Planning?

• 23:39 Why It’s Okay Sometimes for Both the Therapist and the Client to Say the Wrong Thing?

• 27:57 Why Borderlines Need to Bring the “Fun” Back?

• 34:56 Be Clear About Your Deal Breakers and Must Haves Before Finding a Therapist

• 41:01 Permission to Not See Yourself Through the Lense of Having Borderline

• 43:37 Closing

(End of Interview)

• 43:57 Closing Statement & BPD Daily Mantra

• 44:15 Outro

Episode Resources:

• Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

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Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

• “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Part Three with Valerie Porr: Her Call to Action - Join the Movement if We Want BPD Stigma to Change

Wed, 05 Mar 2025 10:00:32 GMT

Today’s episode brings us the final part of what has been a most exciting and informative interview with Valerie Porr, Author and Founder of the Treatment and Research Advancements National Association for Personality Disorder (TARA4BPD), a non-for-profit organization founded in 1995. She shares a Call to Action, determined that change will come with more involvement in conferences and BPD presentations. And we definitely need to promote BPD research..

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

• Valerie Porr

• Website: https://www.tara4bpd.org//

•

Episode Resources:

• Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

• “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

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Removing the BPD Shame Badge: A Call to Action with Valerie Porr

Wed, 26 Feb 2025 10:00:42 GMT

Today’s episode brings us the second part of an exciting interview with Valerie Porr, Author and Founder of the Treatment and Research Advancements National Association for Personality Disorder (TARA4BPD), a non-for-profit organization founded in 1995. She highlights the need to increase funding and resources for personality disorder research and treatment. She also suggests implementing research domain criteria instead of DSM for better diagnosis and treatment.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

• Valerie Porr

• Website: https://www.tara4bpd.org//

• LINK FOR VALERIE'S AWARD-WINNING BOOK: "Overcoming Borderline Disorder: A Family Guide for Healing and Change

In this episode, you will hear:

• 0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

• 1:30 Funding Disparities in Mental Health Treatment

• 3:54 Diagnostic Challenges and Comorbidity

• 7:52 Limitations of DSM and New Research Approaches

• 11:59 Statistics and Treatment Implications

• 15:23 Advocacy and Professional Stigma

• 21:45 Conclusion and Call to Action

• 27:20 Closing

(End of Interview)

• 28:40 Closing Statement & BPD Daily Mantra

• 29:40 Outro

Episode Resources:

• Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

• “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Support The Show:

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Understanding the Science of BPD: Triggers, Reactions, & Myths Debunked - Featuring Valerie Porr

Wed, 19 Feb 2025 18:01:44 GMT

Today’s episode brings us the first of three parts of an exciting interview with Valerie Porr, Author and Founder of the Treatment and Research Advancements National Association for Personality Disorder (TARA4BPD), a non-for-profit organization founded in 1995. We unpack why BPD, after 30+ years of research, is still so stigmatized by psychiatrists, clinicians, and mental health providers. You don’t want to miss her breakdown of how BPD differences are not recognized as advantages in today’s world.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

• Valerie Porr

• Website: https://www.tara4bpd.org//

• LINK FOR VALERIE'S AWARD-WINNING BOOK: "Overcoming Borderline Disorder: A Family Guide for Healing and Change

In this episode, you will hear:

• 0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

• 3:45 How She Unpacked Patterns in How PwBPD Respond to Their Loved Ones?

• 7:35 Is it BPD Manipulation or Survival?

• 11:21 Why Everyone Should Take A Closer Look at BPD Hypervigilance?

• 15:30 Why BPD Differences Are Not Recognized as Advantages in Today's World?

• 19:29 Are You Having A BPD Reaction or A Human Reaction?

• 23:39 How to Connect with Valerie

• 27:20 Closing

(End of Interview)

• 28:40 Closing Statement & BPD Daily Mantra

• 29:40 Outro

Episode Resources:

• Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

• “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Support The Show:

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/1w8Al9kFeNskbt8COjJifi?si=b83e472252bd4175

https://www.instagram.com/the.truth.doctor

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The Truth Doctor - Dr. Courtney Tracy & Fellow BPD Warrior is in the House

Wed, 12 Feb 2025 19:25:05 GMT

Today’s episode brings us an exciting interview with Dr. Courtney Tracy (known as 'the truth doctor'), a licensed clinical social worker and doctor of clinical psychology with over 2 million followers worldwide. Dr. Tracy shares her personal journey with substance abuse and Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD),

Dr. Tracy emphasizes the importance of psychoeducation and understanding the brain's functioning in BPD treatment. She also mentions her upcoming book 'Your Unconscious is Showing,' which adapts the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous into 12 Steps of Consciousness for mental health struggles. Tune in for wisdom, healing strategies, and an empowering approach to overcoming emotional challenges.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Dr. Courtney Tracy, Website: https://www.thetruthdoctor.com/

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

3:36 What Led You to This Type of Work?
7:25 How Do You Define Recovery?
7:12 Is BPD Recovery Possible?
10:56 The Blurred Lines Between Being Borderline and Being Human
17:51 The Importance of Psychoeducation About The Body & The Brain
21:14 Messages to Dr. Tracy’s Younger and Older Selves
27:16 How to Connect with Dr. Tracy
30:22 Closing

(End of Interview)

30:51 Closing Statement & BPD Daily Mantra
31:28 Outro

Episode Resources:

Dr. Courtney Tracy: https://www.thetruthdoctor.com/

Link to her book: Dr. Courtney's Book

Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host: Nicole: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits: Music Producer: DJtheIII, Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Don't Lose Your Mind During the Holidays - Playlist

Wed, 11 Dec 2024 17:19:27 GMT

In this special episode, we’re celebrating the season by bringing you a seamless playlist featuring all the incredible songs from past episodes of Press Pause! Whether relaxing at home, taking a winter stroll, or just needing a moment to unwind, this music compilation is designed to provide comfort, inspiration, and joy.

Sit back, press play, and let the melodies take you on a reflective journey through Season 1. It’s the perfect way to revisit the musical highlights from the show and create meaningful moments during the holiday season.

(Beginning of Playlist)

• 1:07 Intro to The Holiday Playlist• 1:50 “Free Mind” – Tems: • 3:02 “Healing” by Computer Data: • 4:23 “Ion Like That” by Jane Handcock: • 5:46 “Wasn’t Looking” by Eliza: • 7:07 “[Who?] Keeps Changing Your Mind (Daniel Bowie and Roy Rox Mix)” by South Street Player: • 8:30 ‘What You Afraid Of (DJ Spen & Thommy Davis Disco Phobia Mix)” - Ziggy Funk feat. Taliwa: • 9:56 “Who Am I” by Boddhi Satva Feat. Athenai & C.Robert Walker: • 11:23 “Free” by Stephanie Mills: • 12:45 “Lonely Days” by CocoSA: • 14:05 “Little Things” (Remix) by Jorja Smith ft MayDay: • 15:29 “Gold” by Austin Millz: • 16:51 “Every Word” – Temika Moore: • 18:14 “I Might Do Something Wrong” (Osunlade Lonely Mix) by Tortured Soul: • 19:36 “Acceptance” by Synkro: • 21:00 “When I’m In Your Arms” by Cleo Sol: • 22:22 “Keep Going” (Chosen) by Sevena - • 23:42 “Breathe” by Timi: • 25:08 “Northface” by Sinazza x Kagan: • 26:28 “Stressed’ - Doechii: • 27:50 “Self Love” - Ari Lennox Bas & Baby Rose: • 29:11 Closer by Goapele: • 30:35 “Surely Slowly” by Jill Scott: • 31:57 “FREQUENCY” by Stella: • 33:19 “Thinking Less” by Sinead Harnett Music: • 34:40 “Xorberax”- I Know: • 36:02 “Get Dressed” by NXTLVL4L: • 37:25 “I Am” by Beautiful Chorus featuring India.Arie: • 38:47 “Find Me Here” by Sherwin Gardner: • 40:11 “Forgive Them” by Jane Handcock, Harry Simmons: • 41:33 “Deep End” by Fousheé: • “Say Something (A Great Big World)” - Jacob Banks:

(End of Playlist)

44:18 Nicole’s Closing Statement
44:42 BPD Daily Mantra
44:58 OutroConnect with the Host: Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.comFree BPD Support Resources : https://www.showmegrace.org Credits:Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIIISound Engineer: Stefan MitroiResearch Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Tool Time: Co-Morbidities Definition, Audio & Video Journaling, & Manifesting Meditation

Wed, 04 Dec 2024 16:05:17 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole Darby sheds light on co-morbidities and their impact on mental health. She explains the significance of the term and explores how understanding co-morbidities can lead to better self-awareness and informed care decisions. Next she discusses using audio and video journaling to help regulate emotions.

Following Tool Time, relax with a Mindful Moment featuring a guided meditation on manifesting your future self. This reflective practice encourages clarity, intention, and personal growth, helping you envision the life you aspire to create.

Here is the episode breakdown:

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

1:07 Intro to Tool Time
1:45 Term of The Day: Co-Morbidities

(Beginning of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

3:00 Intro to Tool Time - Audio and Video Journaling

(Beginning of Mindful Moment)

5:16 Intro to a Mindful Moment
5:32 Beginning of Meditation on Manifesting Your Future Self

(End of Mindful Moment)

19:33 Nicole’s Closing Statement
19:55 BPD Daily Mantra
20:11 Outro
21:31 “Say Something (A Great Big World)” - Jacob Banks: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqbqY_Yiyys

Episode Resources:

Grow With Guri’s 15-Minute Manifestation Meditation: Manifest Your Future Self”: https://youtu.be/H3TqC60UGoU?si=JF4IJuchQmh-rFiH
Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3
❗Don't miss the special offer from Dr. Gregory Serfer, who is providing a 30% discount on the digital version of his book, “I Am Still Right Here” exclusively for our listeners! Use promo code XA05T3V2K1MMK on the website linked in the episode resources section. ❗

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

“I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Tool Time: Radical Acceptance Definition, How to Find the Right Therapist,& Emotional Regulation Meditation

Wed, 27 Nov 2024 10:00:22 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole Darby introduces Tool Time, focusing on radical acceptance and its role in understanding self-perception. She provides actionable advice for finding the right therapist and shares a helpful checklist of 10 essential questions to guide your search for the best therapeutic fit.

Following Tool Time, unwind with a Mindful Moment featuring a guided meditation on accepting uncomfortable feelings, fostering self-awareness, and emotional growth.

Here is the episode breakdown:

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Intro to Tool Time
1:45 Term of The Day: Radical Acceptance
4:27 Find the Right Therapist
5:45 Checklist: 10 Questions to Use

(End of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

(Beginning of Mindful Moment)

8:00 Intro to a Mindful Moment
8:16 Beginning of Meditation on Accepting Uncomfortable Feelings

(End of Mindful Moment)

19:10 Nicole’s Closing Statement
19:31 BPD Daily Mantra
19:48 Outro
21:06 “Lonely Days” by CocoSA: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNPLKvVXVqU

Episode Resources:

Soothing Pod’s Mindfulness Meditation on Accepting Uncomfortable Feelings: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b_k2y6EQoBk
Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

❗Don't miss the special offer from Dr. Gregory Serfer, who is providing a 30% discount on the digital version of his book, “I Am Still Right Here” exclusively for our listeners! Use promo code XA05T3V2K1MMK on the website linked in the episode resources section. ❗

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

“I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle:

Addressing Emotional Instability: Featuring Dr. Gregory Serfer & Melanie Jones

Wed, 20 Nov 2024 12:24:10 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole Darby, Melanie Jones, and Dr. Gregory Serfer delve into affective instability, a core symptom of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Dr. Serfer defines affective instability, explores its traits, and distinguishes it from moodiness and bipolar disorder. Nicole and Mel share personal experiences with instability, shedding light on common triggers and the challenges they face. Dr. Serfer also highlights the importance of accurate diagnosis and how medical professionals can improve evaluations to reduce misdiagnosis.

The episode concludes with practical strategies, treatments, and therapies to help manage affective instability, offering actionable steps for recovery and emotional regulation.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guests:

Dr. Gregory Serfer: contact@gregoryserfer.com

Book: “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Quora: https://www.quora.com/profile/Gregory-Serfer

Melanie Jones: emmjay993@yahoo.com
Handsome Dan

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Beginning Pleasantries and Dr. Serfer’s New Introduction
3:52 The Definition of Affective Instability and Its Traits/Attributes
8:15 Difference Between Affective Instability and Moodiness
11:35 Difficulty of Affective Instability
13:56 What is the Reason Behind It?
20:03 Mel’s Experience with Instability
21:59 Nicole’s Experience with Instability and Certain Triggers
38:43 How Does Instability Differ From Bipolar Disorder?
48:59 Misdiagnosis & How Should Medical Professionals Conduct Evaluation?
52:45 Mel and Nicole’s Experience with the Cycles with Instability
1:00:56 Useful Strategies, Treatments, Therapies, Steps Towards Recovery

(End of Interview)

1:08:38 Nicole’s Closing Statement
1:09:00 BPD Daily Mantra
1:09:16 Outro
1:10:36 “Wasn’t Looking” by Eliza: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nplzEY0IXA&list=RDMM&index=29

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Tool Time: Defining Schema Therapy, Finding a BPD Buddy, Gratitude Meditation

Wed, 13 Nov 2024 10:00:35 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole Darby presents Tool Time, exploring schema therapy and unpacking BPD’s four dysfunctional modes; The Abandoned Child, Angry Child, Punitive Parent, and Detached Protector, while emphasizing the goal of a balanced Adult Mode. Then, Nicole also discusses the impact of support systems on managing BPD, offering actionable tips for building a community through “BPD Buddies.”

Following Tool Time, immerse yourself and unwind with a Mindful Moment featuring a guided gratitude meditation for self-compassion and inner peace.

Here is the episode breakdown:

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

1:07 Intro to Tool Time
1:45 Term of The Day: Schema Therapy
2:24 BPD’s Four Dysfunctional Modes and Adult Mode
3:42 The Abandoned Child Mode
4:24 The Angry Child Mode
5:04 The Punitive Parent Mode
5:49 The Detached Protector Mode
6:30 The Goal: Adult Mode
6:55 True or False: Support Increases Improvement In Synonyms of BPD
7:44 Tool & Techniques: BPD Buddies & Ways for Success

(End of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

(Beginning of Mindful Moment)

10:16 Intro to a Mindful Moment
10:44 Beginning of Gratitude Guided Meditation

(End of Mindful Moment)

19:27 Nicole’s Closing Statement
19:50 BPD Daily Mantra
20:06 Outro
21:23 “I Am” by Beautiful Chorus featuring India.Arie: https://youtu.be/4gUY9QshcVQ?si=U1UVrfBsMprgc6-v

Episode Resources:

Gratitude Guided Meditation - Female Voice by YaleUniversity: https://on.soundcloud.com/cSAsMux6cCexg5yi7

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

“I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

How Do Impulsive (Self-Damaging) Behaviors Impact A Person with BPD?

Wed, 06 Nov 2024 10:01:05 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole, along with Dr. Gregory Serfer and Melanie Jones, dives into the true meaning of impulsivity in Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and its impact on those affected and their supporters. They explore what impulsivity means for people with BPD (pwBPD), how to differentiate it from ADHD, and whether it can be destructive. Also, they examine theories behind impulsive behavior, discussing how it often manifests in those with BPD and the underlying drivers behind it. They discuss coping mechanisms, the impact on daily functionality, and how impulsivity often affects friends and family. Finally, they highlight how impulsivity connects to many defining traits of BPD, offering insights and support strategies throughout.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Dr. Gregory Serfer: contact@gregoryserfer.com

Book: “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Melanie Jones

Email: emmjay993@yahoo.com

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Beginning Pleasantries with Gregory, Handsome Dan, Melanie, and Nicole
3:48 Impulsivity From Mel & Nicole’s Perspective
6:30 The True Meaning of Impulsivity and Its Impact on People with BPD (pwBPD)
13:48 Theories Behind Impulsivity Behavior Occurs for pwBPD
16:19 Clarifying Question: How Do I Know If I Have BPD or ADHD?
21:00 Is Impulsivity Destructive? Coping Mechanisms and Masking Impulsivity
31:28 Does Different Coping Methods Lead to Low or High Functionality?
44:04 How Impulsive Behavior Impacts the Supporting Individuals Around pwBPD
48:46 Many Definitive Criteria of BPD Are Connected Through Impulsivity
53:09 Mel’s Final Words and Nicole’s Perspective on Impulsivity
57:17 Dr.Gregory’s Final Words: The Effect of Alcohol on Impulsivity

(End of Interview)

1:02:31 Nicole’s Closing Statement
1:02:52 BPD Daily Mantra
1:03:09 Outro
1:04:25 “Little Things” (Remix) by Jorja Smith ft MayDay: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xA9byN3fzks

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Tool Time: Radically/Open-DBT Definition, Plan Before You Go, Mindful Moment Meditation

Wed, 30 Oct 2024 16:52:33 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole Darby presents a special “Tool Time” segment, diving into practical mental health tools and strategies for managing BPD and life’s daily stressors. Starting with an introduction to Radically Open Dialectical Behavior Therapy (RO-DBT), Nicole explains the key differences between traditional DBT and RO-DBT. She follows this with a series of helpful techniques, to assist you in planning before you go.

After “Tool Time,” Nicole transitions into a relaxing “Mindful Moment,” guiding listeners through a meditation aimed at improving productivity, focus, and prioritization skills. This segment is perfect for those looking to boost mental clarity and feel more grounded throughout the day.

Here is the episode breakdown:

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

1:07 Intro to Tool Time
1:45 Term of The Day: Radically Open Dialectical Behavior Therapy (RO-DBT)
2:42 The Key Differences Between DBT and RO-DBT
4:03 Tool & Techniques: Plan Before You Go, Outfit of Armor, Music, Etc
7:44 Tool & Techniques: Three, Three, Three Grounding Technique

(End of Tool Time with Nicole Darby)

(Beginning of Mindful Moment)

8:30 Intro to a Mindful Moment
8:47 Beginning of Meditation To Boost Your Productivity, Focus & Prioritization Skills

(End of Mindful Moment)

26:18 Nicole’s Closing Statement
26:40 BPD Daily Mantra
26:57 Outro
28:17 “Surely Slowly” by Jill Scott: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gu_zgEKCC1Q

Episode Resources:

Meditation to Boost Your Productivity, Focus & Prioritization Skills + Hypnosis and Affirmations by Meditable Goal Meditations: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1JOIOWOld0
Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darbyl: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

The Challenges of Filing for Disability When You Have BPD - Featuring BPD Warrior Kim Beavers

Wed, 23 Oct 2024 09:00:51 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole sits down with Kim Beavers to discuss all things disability; exploring the challenges, the commitment, and the low success rate that often comes with filing disability claims. Kim shares her journey, starting with what led her down the path of disability and what it takes to qualify for a claim.

She delves into the importance of detailed logs, the role of referrals, and how she managed to balance work and life during the process. They tackle the stigma surrounding Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) in disability claims and the lengthy process of approval. Kim offers insight into the impact of Social Security Disability Insurance (SSDI), and what needs to change for the government, clinicians, and employers to move beyond traditional evaluations.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Kim Beavers
- Kim’s Quora: https://www.quora.com/profile/Kimbriana-Beavers
In this episode, you will hear:
0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Intro to Kim Beavers’ Interview and Beginning Pleasantries
3:21 What Leads You to The Path of Disability?
7:02 The Success of a Disability Claim
7:28 What Does It Take to Qualify?
10:10 How Detailed Were You With The Logs for Your Claim?
13:04 Who Were Your Referrals for Your Claim?
14:54 How Did You Balance Work and Life During This Time?
22:22 Medical Stigma at BPD In Disability Claims
25:39 How Long Is The Process for Approval?
31:35 Limitations on Work and Partial Degree of Disability
34:01 How Has The Social Security Disability Insurance (SSDI) Affected You?
38:22 What Needs to Change For The Government, Clinicians, and Employers to Move Beyond From Traditional Evaluations?

(End of Interview)

49:10 Nicole’s Closing Statement
49:32 BPD Daily Mantra
49:49 Outro
51:07 “Deep End” by Fousheé: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yEgilud6tRU

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Free BPD Support Resources and Weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

BPD DSM CRITERIA: Unstable Self Image

Wed, 16 Oct 2024 09:01:05 GMT

In this episode, Nicole is joined by Dr. Gregory Serfer and Melanie Jones to discuss the stigmatization of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and its impact on personal identity. They delve into how certain words contribute to the stigmatization of BPD. The conversation expands to explore Dissociative Identity Disorder, BPD-related identity disturbances, and whether there’s a connection between self-awareness and a more stable sense of identity. Melanie shares her personal experience with a shifting sense of self, followed by Nicole’s reflections on this idea. The episode wraps up with insights into the conscious and unconscious nature of mirroring behavior, and Dr. Gregory offers some final words of wisdom.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Dr. Gregory Serfer: contact@gregoryserfer.com
Melanie Jones: emmjay993@yahoo.com

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Beginning Pleasantries with Nicole, Dr, Gregory Serfer, and Melanie Jones
3:30 Mel’s Perspective: Do Certain Words Increase The Stigmatization of BPD?
7:08 Gregory’s Perspective: Do Certain Words Increase The Stigmatization of BPD?
9:30 What Is Dissociative Identity Disorder?
13:27 BPD-Related Identity Disturbances
16:09 Is There A Link Between BPD-Related Identity Disturbances and Self-Awareness?
19:14 Does Developing/Practicing Self-Awareness Help Your Identity Become More Stable?
21:58 The Hot Seat: Mel’s Experience With A Shifting Sense of Self
28:03 Nicole’s Experience With A Shifting Sense of Self
33:36 Is Mirroring Conscious, Self-Conscious, or Both?
42:07 Gregory’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

52:06 Nicole’s Closing Statement
52:29 BPD Daily Mantra
52:45 Outro
54:02 “Who Am I” by Boddhi Satva Feat. Athenai & C.Robert Walker: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iu8PTI-iwpQ

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle:

Trauma Healing By Retelling Your Story with Transformation Coach Jenn Reddy

Wed, 09 Oct 2024 09:01:09 GMT

In this episode, Nicole interviews Jenn Reddy, a life coach and story transformer, about how to navigate deep trauma and reshape personal narratives. Jenn offers practical tools like self-check-ins, challenging negative thoughts, and using resources to stay grounded. She shares key questions to ask when facing trauma and emphasizes self-compassion in the healing process. Jenn wraps up with a powerful metaphor of seeing ourselves as resilient trees.

Tune in for wisdom, healing strategies, and an empowering approach to overcoming emotional challenges.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest: Jenn Reddy

Website: https://transformationcoaching.life

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Intro to Jenn Reddy’s Interview
2:56 The Process of Being a Story Transformer
7:12 What If My Trauma Is Too Deep?
12:04 Key Questions to Ask Yourself
18:52 Check In: Is It true? What Happens When I Believe This Thought? Who Would I Be Without This Thought?
20:07 What Are Some Things You Can Do to Stay the Course
27:04 Reliving the Shame, Resources, and Checklist To Tackle the Day
32:14 Jenn’s Final Words: See Ourselves as Trees

(End of Interview)

37:06 Nicole’s Closing Statement
37:27 BPD Daily Mantra
37:43 Outro
39:03 “Healing” by Computer Data: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bi7lK10U18c

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org
Jenn’s Recommendation: The Work of Bryon Katie: https://thework.com

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

“I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Author Emi Nietfeld Investigates America's Fixation on "Resilience" & Promotes Mental Health Advocacy

Wed, 02 Oct 2024 09:00:48 GMT

In today’s episode, Nicole has an insightful conversation with author Emi Nietfeld about her journey, mental health advocacy, and her book Acceptance. She shares her experience living with mental health challenges, including having features of BPD, discussing how labels impacted her work and recovery. We also explore her thoughts on mental health tools, societal shame, and the changes needed for greater acceptance of mental health struggles.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Emi Nietfeld

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eminietfeld/

Substack: https://substack.com/@eminietfeld

Book: “Acceptance”: https://tr.ee/ajpdA_8hZb (provides all links)

Website: https://www.eminietfeld.com

Linktree: https://linktr.ee/eminietfeld

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Intro to Emi Nietfeld’s Interview
1:32 Beginning Pleasantries and Emma's Introduction
3:06 Emily's Journey and Her Motivation for Her Book
5:20 Did You Have Any Advocates For Mental Health at That Time?
7:09 Were You Open to The Recovery Process? (Tools, Medication, etc)
11:07 Emi’s Experience with Features of BPD
14:54 How Did The Labels Affect Your Work Environment?
18:43 Where Are You Now In Your Journey?
23:57 Emi’s Perspective: What Needs To Change For Acceptance and Decrease Shame In Society?
27:44 Emi’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

28:33 Nicole’s Closing Statement
28:55 BPD Daily Mantra
29:12 Outro
30:29 “Acceptance” by Synkro: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dNht9Zr0CE

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
❗Don't miss the special offer from Dr. Gregory Serfer, who is providing a 30% discount on the digital version of his book, “I Am Still Right Here” exclusively for our listeners! Use promo code XA05T3V2K1MMK on the website linked in the episode resources section. ❗

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

“I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Credits:

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Production & Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

BPD CRITERIA: IDEALIZATION & DEVALUATION

Wed, 25 Sep 2024 09:00:36 GMT

In today’s episode, we explore and break down idealization and devaluation. Our co-hosts, Melanie Jones and Dr. Gregory Serfer, offer their perspectives on both sides of the coin, followed by insights into how these patterns affect relationships. Dr. Serfer examines their connection, causes, and presence in other mental health conditions.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Dr. Gregory Serfer: contact@gregoryserfer.com

Book: “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Quora: https://www.quora.com/profile/Gregory-Serfer

Melanie Jones: emmjay993@yahoo.com

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Mel’s Perspective: Idealization and Devaluation
4:32 Nicole’s Opening Statement and Beginning Pleasantries
5:49 A Breakdown of Idealization (and Idolization)
12:52 A Breakdown of Devaluation
18:48 Dr. Serfer’s Personal Perspective on Devaluation
24:05 Devaluation in Relationships (Parental, Platonic, Romantic, etc)
33:06 Idealization and Devaluation In Other Mental Conditions
34:14 Causes of Devaluation a.k.a Down the Rabbit Hole
36:04 Does Devaluation Interconnect with Idealization?
38:35 Trusting Your Gut During Idealization
44:38 The Extremes of Idealization and Devaluation
49:32 Preservation of Your Mental Health Through Discarding
52:48 How Permanent Is the Discard and Split?
56:10 Dissociation During A Split or Discard
1:03:29 Dr. Serfer’s and Mel’s Final Words
1:06:16 Meaning Behind the Term, BPD (continued)

(End of Interview)

1:13:38 Nicole’s Closing Statement
1:14:00 BPD Daily Mantra
1:14:17 Outro
1:15:37 “When I’m In Your Arms” by Cleo Sol: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=hp0KiJs0S5g

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
❗Don't miss the special offer from Dr. Gregory Serfer, who is providing a 30% discount on the digital version of his book, “I Am Still Right Here” exclusively for our listeners! Use promo code XA05T3V2K1MMK on the website linked in the episode resources section. ❗

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

“I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Credits:

Hosts: Nicole Darby, Dr.Gregory Serfer, Melanie Jones, and Handsome Dan

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Forgiveness

Wed, 18 Sep 2024 09:01:49 GMT

In this episode, Nicole and Aseelah explore the complex topic of forgiveness, reflecting on personal experiences and discussing why it's so challenging. They also touch on how spirituality and beliefs influence the ability to forgive. Nicole shares her perspective on navigating forgiveness in her own life. Aseelah also shares her professional insights on the role of forgiveness in our lives and its impact on mental and physical well-being. Whether you have BPD or not, this conversation offers valuable perspectives and tools for reaching a place of healing. Tune in for an insightful exploration of this essential emotional journey.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest: Aseelah El-Amin: https://www.instagram.com/talkptwithseesee/

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:08 Nicole’s Opening Statement and Beginning Pleasantries
3:53 What Does Forgiveness Mean?
7:11 Why is It Difficult to Forgive?
10:23 Is It Easier to Hold A Grudge?
12:08 Nicole’s POV: A Time Where You Struggled with Forgiveness
19:31 Aseelah’s POV: A Time Where You Struggled with Forgiveness
23:38 Did Your Spirituality Affect How You Affect Your Choice to Forgive?
28:18 The Philosophy of Forgiveness
30:31 Navigating Forgiveness as a pwBPD or A Person Without BPD
34:47 Other Strengths To Consider To Get to A Place of Forgiveness
37:07 What Would Aseelah’s Clients Think?
39:33 More On Spirituality, The Physicality, and The Science of Forgiveness
48:31 Aseelah’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

50:48 Nicole Closing Statement
51:12 BPD Daily Mantra
51:28 Outro
52:49 “Forgive Them” by Jane Handcock, Harry Simmons: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=arhT2OSTGlA
Episode Resources:
- Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
❗Don't miss the special offer from Dr. Gregory Serfer, who is providing a 30% discount on the digital version of his book, “I Am Still Right Here” exclusively for our listeners! Use promo code XA05T3V2K1MMK on the website linked in the episode resources section. ❗
Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.
- “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT
Connect with the Host:
Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com
Credits:
Hosts: Aseelah El-Amin and Nicole Darby
Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII
Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi
Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby
Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

The Important Role Inner Equity Plays in Our Lives - Featuring Miik Wells

Wed, 11 Sep 2024 09:00:59 GMT

Episode Nineteen: [Miik Wells – Inner Equity]

In this episode, Miik shares his connection with his work with the audience through Nicole's testimonial, offering a glimpse into his approach to mental wellness. He provides strategies for key areas where individuals with BPD often struggle. The episode also features interactive "Game Time" segments, where he discusses the importance of untangling personal patterns, rewriting your story, and embracing authenticity. He concludes with powerful closing thoughts that resonate with anyone on a mental health journey. Tune in for an engaging and transformative discussion aimed at supporting your mental wellness journey.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Miik Wells

Linktree: https://linktr.ee/insiit.miik

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Nicole’s Opening Statement
1:57 Introduction to Miik Wells
3:23 Self-Attunement and Inner Equity
8:14 Nicole’s Session Testimonial with Miik
10:07 Miik’s Connection With His Work
16:13 Strategies for the Five Key Areas Where Individuals Struggle with BPD
26:01 Game Time: Untangling Your Patterns
28:29 Game Time: Rewriting Your Story
30:32 Game Time: Free To Be Me
32:43 Miik’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

34:45 Nicole Closing Statement
35:08 BPD Daily Mantra
35:24 Outro
36:43 “FREQUENCY” by Stella: https://youtu.be/p2BpRCBnx-I?si=cLiifYtOLEoeWQdq

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast.

“I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

What Does Fear of Abandonment Mean to A pwBPD?

Wed, 04 Sep 2024 09:00:27 GMT

In this episode, Nicole, Dr. Gregory Serfer, and Melanie Jones explore the fear of abandonment in Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). They discuss how this fear affects relationships and daily life, sharing personal experiences, insights, and strategies for managing this challenging aspect of BPD. Whether you're looking to understand BPD better or seeking practical advice, this episode offers valuable guidance on navigating fear and abandonment.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

Dr. Gregory Serfer

Email: contact@gregoryserfer.com

Book: “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Quora: https://www.quora.com/profile/Gregory-Serfer

Melanie Jones: emmjay993@yahoo.com

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:07 Nicole’s Opening Statement
2:24 Introduction to Dr. Gregory Serfer and Melanie Jones (and Handsome Dan)
8:00 The Importance of Fear of Abandonment Concerning BPD
13:22 Follow up: Can Fear of Abandonment Play into Other Emotions/Thoughts
18:36 Mel’s Perspective: Fear of Abandonment
23:30 Relationships with a Person with BPD (pwBPD)
29:06 Advice For Confronting Discards
32:07 Mel’s Perspective: Tips to Avoid the Fear of Abandonment
35:20 Nicole’s Perspective: Tips to Avoid the Fear of Abandonment
38:44 More Strategies (Continued)
39:58 Testing, Self-Awareness, and More Perspectives
47:15 Resources, Solutions, Planning, and Support
49:08 Mel and Gregory’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

49:52 Nicole’s Closing Statement
50:15 BPD Daily Mantra
50:31 Outro
51:50 Ion Like That by Jane Handcock: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=j5oo3U0QeLQ

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Free BPD Support Resources and Weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Nicole Darby, Dr. Gregory Serfer, Melanie Jones, "Handsome Dan" -Yeti microphone

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

The Connection Between Fitness & Mental Health: Featuring Marcia Jones - Licensed Counselor & Group Fitness Coach

Wed, 28 Aug 2024 09:01:12 GMT

Episode Seventeen: [Movement with Marcia]

In today’s episode, Nicole talks with Marcia Jones, a counselor who combines fitness with her therapy sessions. They discuss why Marcia chose to blend fitness with counseling, how it helps her clients, and ways to work with those who might be hesitant. Marcia also offers advice on overcoming shame and joins in a "Myth or Truth" game to clear up common misconceptions about fitness and mental health.

Guest:

Marcia Jones

Website: https://www.psycorefit.com

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/psycorefit

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:05 Nicole’s Opening Statement

(Beginning of Interview)

2:04 Introduction to Marcia Jones
3:38 What Was the Motivation for the Integration of Fitness into Counseling?
7:59 How Was Fitness Integrated for the Clients?
11:12 How Do You Approach a Resistant Client?
15:35 A Different Approach and Tips Against Shame
20:24 A Game: Myth or Truth
30:17 Marcia’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

34:33 Nicole’s Closing Statement
34:56 BPD Daily Mantra
35:11 Outro
“Keep Going” (Chosen) by Sevena - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xQ4dqv4Wx_0

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby

Free BPD Support Resources and Weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Busting Common Myths About BPD & Eating Disorders with Tatum Carter

Wed, 21 Aug 2024 09:01:11 GMT

Episode Sixteen: Eating Disorders with Tatum Carter

In this episode, Nicole is joined by Tatum Carter, a Community Outreach Liaison at the Eating Recovery Center, to explore the intricate connection between Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and eating disorders, with a focus on marginalized communities. Tatum offers valuable insights into common myths, challenges, and key triggers related to eating disorders. The discussion also delves into crucial advocacy steps and initial steps toward wellness for those impacted. Tune in for practical guidance and Tatum's inspiring final words on mental wellness.

Guest:

Tatum Carter

Eating Recovery Center: https://www.eatingrecoverycenter.com

Asessment Line 1-877-756-4832

Email: tatum.carter@ercpathlight.com

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:09 Opening Statement
2:08 A BPD Statistic
3:28 Introduction of Tatum Carter
4:38 What Led You to Work of Mental Wellness?
5:43 Common Myths Amongst Eating Disorders (ED)
9:21 Eating Disorder Challenges in Marginalized Communities
12:24 What Are Some Challenges of ED We Need to Address?
14:06 What Are Some High-Level Triggers?
18:15 Advocacy Steps for Marginalized Communities
23:18 First Steps to Wellness
24:46 Tatum’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

25:55 Closing Statement from Nicole
26:17 BPD Daily Mantra
26:34 Outro
27:51 “[Who?] Keeps Changing Your Mind (Daniel Bowie and Roy Rox Mix)” by South Street Player: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=-xNkReWoAZw

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby

Free BPD Support Resources and Weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Host: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

In-between BPD Diagnosis - A Firsthand Experience from Eve

Wed, 14 Aug 2024 09:00:56 GMT

Episode Fifteen: [Eve’s In-Between Diagnosis]

In today’s episode, Nicole sits down with a mental health warrior, Eve to have a conversation about her journey with mental health from adolescence to now. They cover the impacts of mental health, and misdiagnosis, and reflect on their communities and influences on how they perceive their mental health.

Guest:

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:07 Introduction to Eve’s Interview

(Beginning of Interview)

1:46 Eve’s Introduction and Opening Conversation
3:42 How Are You Doing?
4:36 Early Symptoms of BPD in Adolescence
6:52 Early Diagnosis
12:19 Knowledge about BPD Before Diagnosis
14:40 Misdiagnosis and Medical Stigma on BPD
15:55 Quiet BPD
17:46 Steps to Recovery and Thoughts on Diagnosis
20:59 The Impact of Mental Health
22:05 Eve’s Thoughts on Her Journey
24:55 Love Letter to BPD

(End of Interview)

26:18 Closing Statement from Nicole
26:38 BPD Daily Mantra
26:55 Outro
28:12 “Northface” by Sinazza x Kagan: https://tinyurl.com/Sinazza-x-Kagan

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby

Free BPD Support Resources and Weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Yes, They Have BPD in South Africa Too!

Wed, 07 Aug 2024 09:01:04 GMT

Episode Fourteen: Mel Jones & Dr. Serfer

In this episode, Dr. Gregory Serfer, author of "I Am Still Right Here," and Melanie Jones explore the complexities of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) through real-life experiences. Dr. Serfer narrates Mel's crisis story - which provides insightful perspective on how people see pwBPD. Mel resides in South Africa and the conversation aptly sets the stage for a raw, honest discussion on BPD's ups and downs, the lack of available support and it's impact, and common misunderstandings. They share clinical and firsthand insights on BPD misinterpretations, stress tolerance, and necessary healthcare changes for better diagnosis and support.

Guests:

Dr. Gregory Serfer & Melanie Jones

Mel's Email: emmjay993@yahoo.com

Gregory's Email: contact@gregoryserfer.com

Book: “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:07 Trigger Warning
1:31 Introduction to Melanie Jones (Mel) & Dr. Gregory Serfer
2:06 Mel’s Crisis Story narrated by Dr. Serfer

(Beginning of Interview)

7:35 Beginning of the Interview
10:06 Who Is Mel Jones?
11:13 Who is Dr. Serfer and What Is This Book?
14:20 Mel’s Journey: The Ups and Downs of BPD
17:53 The Lack of a Support System or Tribe and The BPD Monster Amongst Friends, Family, and Partners
22:22 Common Misunderstanding Amongst BPD
29:54 The Misreading of pwBPD by Others
37:31 Stress Tolerance for pwBPD
45:52 BPD Buddies
53:55 What needs to change in healthcare for BPD?
1:01:24 The Misunderstanding of BPD Diagnosis
1:03:25 Final Thoughts

(End of Interview)

1:12:07 Closing Statement from Nicole
1:12:28 BPD Daily Mantra
1:12:45 Outro
1:14:02 “Gold” by Austin Millz: https://open.spotify.com/track/5Dz6wdHlI45KAOBAfMSJRS

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Weekly Support Group & Career Coaching

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Host & Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

How a BPD Parent Managed NOT to F--k Up Her Child

Wed, 31 Jul 2024 15:27:41 GMT

In today’s episode, we introduce our crisis story, Kimbriana’s Story read by herself. Nicole sits down with a mental health warrior, Kim, and her son Ian to reflect on her experience as a person with BPD and how it affects her motherhood and relationship with her son, Ian. They share an insightful first and second perspective of parenting with bpd and look into how their relationship has evolved.

Disclaimer: Please forgive some of the audio issues with this episode. We tried our best to resolve and chose to release the episode anyway because the content is so important!

The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

Guest:

Kim & Ian Beavers
- Kim’s Quora: https://www.quora.com/profile/Kimbriana-Beavers

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:30 Intro to Kim Story and Interview
2:19 Kim’s Story read by Bella (Crisis Story)

(Beginning of Interview)

9:53 A Introduction to Kim & Ian Beavers
11:43 Heredity of BPD
14:28 The Concerns of Being a Mother as a pwBPD
16:30 The Experience of a Childhood Raised By a pwBPD
18:06 The Age of Awareness of BPD
19:55 The Fear of Inheriting BPD
23:09 Recovery and Treatment of BPD
26:39 Controlling Crises while Raising A Child
29:21 Crises while Raising A Child (From Ian’s Perspective)
33:00 Kim & Ian’s Relationship In the Present
33:58 Final Thoughts from Ian
38:36 Final Thoughts from Kim
41:30 Love Letter to BPD

(End of Interview)

46:18 Closing Statement from Nicole
46:35 BPD Daily Mantra
46:58 Outro
48:15 Find Me Here by Sherwin Gardner: https://tinyurl.com/Blessings-Find-Me

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Hosts:

Bella Zimmerman: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Hosts: Bella Zimmerman and Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Tool Time: Byron Katie's Transformative Inquiry Questions & Productivity Guided Meditation

Thu, 25 Jul 2024 20:22:27 GMT

In today's podcast, we dive deep into powerful tools for mental wellness. Join us as we explore the transformative inquiry questions by Byron Katie, understand the concept of Mentalization-Based Therapy (MBT), and engage in a guided meditation for better time management, productivity, and focus.

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

1:45 Term of the Day: MBT (Mentalization-Based Therapy)

(Beginning of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

4:15 Nicole & Sasha Fearce and the Effects of BPD
5:49 The 4 Inquiry Key Questions
6:14 Turnaround Statements and Mental Yoga

(End of Tool Time With Nicole Darby)

(Beginning of Meditation for Time Management, Productivity, and Focus)

6:49 Opening Statement to Meditation
7:06 Beginning of Meditation
21:10 Closing Statement of Meditation

(End of Mindfulness and Meditation)

23:16 Closing Statement from Nicole
23:39 BPD Daily Mantra
23:55 Outro
25:13 Closer by Goapele: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Tb9fkGCCV1o

Episode Resources:

- Bi-weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

- Crisis Hotline - Call or text 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org

- Meditable Goal Meditations: Meditation for Excellent Time Management, Productivity & Focus + Hypnosis and Affirmations: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bf7iCt980TA

Connect With Host:

Nicole Darby

Credits:

Hosts: Nicole Darby

Sound Engineer: Stefan

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJ Ervin

Editor: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Tamar Brignolle

An Inside Look at BPD Treatments with Clinical Psychologist & Linehan Board Certified DBT Therapist Dr. Stephanie Vaughn

Thu, 18 Jul 2024 15:07:14 GMT

In today’s enlightening episode, Dr. Stephanie Vaughn discusses various important topics related to Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). She provides expert insights into BPD criteria and treatments, client advocacy in therapy, Radically Open Dialectical Behavior Therapy (RO-DBT), and therapy's true length and effectiveness. The episode also highlights the power of client autonomy in their mental health journey, covering aspects such as medication, therapy, and more. Join us as Dr. Vaughn shares her knowledge and experience, offering valuable tools and perspectives for those navigating the complexities of BPD.

Guest:

Dr. Stephanie Vaughn

Website: https://www.psychepllc.com

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Interview)

1:59 Introduction of Dr. Stephanie Vaughn
6:45 Intro to True or False/ How Do You Feel About…
7:46 How Do You Feel About… 260 Ways of BPD and Criteria?
11:05 Specific Treatments for BPD Criteria
14:05 How Can Clients Advocate for Therapy?
21:40 What is Radically Open DBT?
28:45 What is the True Length of Therapy?
32:21 Does Your Therapist Need Therapy?
35:00 Other Questions For Your Therapist…
43:00 After Effects of Medication, Multiple Opinions, and Doctor Shopping
46:22 True or False: Psychiatrists Should Be Focused on Only Medication, Not Personal Life
51:21 Client Invalidation from Psychiatrists and the Power of Autonomy
54:32 Dr. Stephanie Vaughn's Final Words

(End of Interview)

1:02:59 Closing Statement from Nicole
1:03:21 BPD Daily Mantra
1:03:38 Outro
1:04:54 “Stressed’ - Doechii: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29mk5rz3m7Q

Episode Resources:

- Bi-weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

- Crisis Hotline - Call or text 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org

Connect With Host

Nicole Darby

Credits:

Hosts: Nicole Darby

Sound Engineer: Stefa Mitroi

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJ Ervin

Editor: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Tamar Brignolle

Own Your Mental Health Recovery Through Person-Centered Thinking with David Toback

Wed, 10 Jul 2024 18:02:18 GMT

In today’s enlightening episode, we are joined by David Toback, a mentor and trainer in Person-Centered Therapy (PCT). David shares his extensive knowledge and personal journey towards embracing PCT, offering valuable insights into how this therapeutic approach can benefit individuals with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).

Guest:

David Toback

Website: https://replacingrisk.com/

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:07 Person-Centered Therapy/Intro to Guest

(Beginning of Interview)

2:21 Introduction of David Toback
4:33 More Insight Into Person-Centered Therapy (PCT)
7:14 The Personal Journey Towards PCT
13:14 How Can PCT Help A Person With BPD (pwBPD)
21:28 How Can Someone Advocate for PCT In Their Recovery Plan
30:46 What Is The Best Approach To Discuss PCT With Your Provider?
39:02 David Toback’s Final Words

(End of Interview)

51:56 Closing Statement from Nicole
52:18 BPD Daily Mantra
52:33 Outro
53:52 Ziggy Funk feat. Taliwa - What You Afraid Of (DJ Spen & Thommy Davis Disco Phobia Mix) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhDVKAEHPGg

Episode Resources:

holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

- Bi-weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

- Crisis Hotline - Call or text 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org

Credits:

Hosts: Nicole Darby

Sound Engineer: Stefa Mitroi

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJ Ervin

Editor: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Tamar Brignolle

Tool Time on Reflection & Self-love Meditation

Wed, 03 Jul 2024 08:00:33 GMT

In today's episode, we continue our "Tool Time with Kim Beavers" segment, focusing on reflection and overcoming the stereotypes surrounding Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Kim provides insightful tools for self-management, emphasizes clarity over vanity, and encourages listeners to take genuine action toward self-improvement. We also introduce the "Term of the Day," Somatic Experiencing Therapy, and end with a self-love meditation to foster mindfulness and emotional well-being.

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:08 Term of the Day: Somatic Experiencing Therapy

(Beginning of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

2:13 Intro
2:41 Stereotypes of Borderlines
3:44 Looking at Oneself
5:28 Clarity over Vanity
7:05 Taking Action: Act of Being Genuine
7:58 Outro

(End of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

(Beginning of Self-Love Meditation)

9:08 Intro
10:42 Beginning of Self-Love Meditation
18:15 Closing Statement

(End of Mindfulness and Meditation)

18:48 Closing Statement from Nicole
19:42 BPD Daily Mantra
19:27 Outro
20:45 “Self Love” - Ari Lennox Bas & Baby Rose: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=isItUUKPAT8&si=XyoJv2BEMr8T93G1

Episode Resources:

Bi-Weekly Support Group & Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect With Hosts:

Kim Beavers:beaversbin2021@gmail.com

Quora: https://www.quora.com/profile/Kimbriana-Beavers

Blog: https://invisiblelines.quora.com/

Bella Zimmerman: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com

Free BPD Support Resources and Bi-weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Emotional Validation - A Live Coaching Session

Wed, 26 Jun 2024 20:10:06 GMT

In today's gripping episode, join Nicole and Bella on a coaching session, delving deep into the complexities of emotional turmoil, the quest for validation, grappling with shame, and navigating lingering feelings that affect both self and relationships. They explore the profound interplay between spirituality and holistic approaches and uncover invaluable insights and strategies for personal growth and emotional well-being.

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of The Discussion Between Nicole and Bella)

2:05 Conversation Opener: Reflection of The Last Session
7:11 What Are Your Greatest Strengths and Why? (and Past Lives)
29:43 The Appreciation of Spirituality
35:45 The First Time I Remember Feeling Shame…
46:01 Follow-Up: Shame or Residual Feelings Related to Past Memories
1:02:27 A Proud Moment Where You Stood Up For Yourself
1:25:04 A Check-In/ Final Thoughts on Session

(End of The Discussion Between Nicole and Bella)

1:33:49 Closing Statement from Bella and Nicole
1:35:36 BPD Daily Mantra
1:35:59 Outro
1:37:15 “Every Word” – Temika Moore: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1no2UOJ2YMg

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Bi-Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Hosts:

Bella Zimmerman

Email: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Website: holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole Darby

bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Free BPD Support Resources and Bi-weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Bella Zimmerman and Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

A Conversation with Music Producer & BPD Warrior NXTLVL4L

Fri, 21 Jun 2024 18:13:47 GMT

In today's podcast, we start with a powerful moment as Isaiah Allen/NXTLVL4L shares a crisis song, delving into his inner emotions, faith, and journey from past struggles to future evolution, striving for the next level of growth. Following this, we delve into an enlightening interview with Zay, also known as NXTLVL4L, uncovering the significance behind his name. Lastly, we explore the fusion of music and spirituality and the profound connections to mental health and self-discovery.

Guest:

Isaiah Allen/NXTLVL4L

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@NXTLVL4L

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nxtlvl4l/

Apple: https://music.apple.com/us/artist/nxtlvl4l/1610481196

0:00 Intro
1:08 Trigger Warning
1:30 Introduction To NXTLVL4L’s Crisis Song
2:16 Crisis Song by NXTLVL4L (Narrated by himself)

3:50 Opening Dialogue: Nicole and Isaiah
4:24 Who is NXTLVL4L?
5:32 The Importance of Music
10:14 The Transition from Music Escapism to the Creation of Music
12:41 The Story behind NXTLVL4L
17:06 Art of Conversation
18:04 How do you Describe Your Music?

20:41 Intermission: A Listen Into “Isolation” by NXTLVL4L

23:13 Over Isolation, The Effects, and How to Overcome
28:42 How Did You Know You Had BPD?
33:09 The Benefits of The Roller Coaster (Up and Downs of BPD) and The Plan Building
36:43 The Healing Powers of Music
38:23 The Introduction of Spirituality

42:48 Intermission: “Hurry Back” by NXTLVL4L

45:38 After Thoughts: “Hurry Back” by NXTLVL4L
46:43 Mental Health and Hip-Hop
47:54 How do You Improve Your Mental Health?
49:42 How Have You Built Your Tribe and Support?

53:08 Intermission: “In My Sleep” by NXTLVL4L

55:59 After Thoughts: “In My Sleep” by NXTLVL4L
57:25 Zay’s Final Words: Self-Recovery, Healing, and Unpacking Real Shit
59:33 Lover Letter To BPD

1:02:41 Closing Statement from Nicole
1:02:56 BPD Daily Mantra
1:03:19 Outro
1:04:39 “Get Dressed” by NXTLVL4L

Episode Resources:

MHA’s Article about “Mental Health and Hip-Hop”: https://mhanational.org/blog/mental-health-and-hip-hop-undeniable-super-team-healing-wellness
APA‘s Article about “The Transformative Power of Music in Mental Well-Being”: https://tinyurl.com/Transformative-Power-of-Music
https://www.showmegrace.org/, presspause4grace@gmail.com

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Credits: Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi , Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Tool Time: The Art of Active Listening & Embracing Change Meditation

Wed, 12 Jun 2024 09:00:58 GMT

In today's podcast, we carry on with our new segment, "Tool Time with Kim Beavers," delving into the challenges of conversation pressure, whether face-to-face or over the phone. Kim offers valuable tools and tips for those striving for recovery. Additionally, we introduce our "Term Of The Day," DBT (dialectical behavior therapy), and initiate a meditation to foster release and acceptance of change.

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:07 Term of the Day: DBT

(Beginning of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

2:12 Intro to Tool Time
2:41 Tools for Self-Management
3:14 Phone Calls and the Pressures of Conversations
4:40 Active Listening
7:18 Goal for Recovery

(End of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

(Beginning of Change Meditation)

8:22 Open Statement
9:40 Beginning of Change Meditation
17:29 Closing Statement

(End of Mindfulness and Meditation)

18:45 Closing Statement from Nicole
19:08 BPD Daily Mantra
19:25 Outro
20:42 “Xorberax”- I Know: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7p7DFGheqk

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Bi-Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect With Hosts:

Kim’s Quora: https://www.quora.com/profile/Kimbriana-Beavers

Kim’s Blog: https://invisiblelines.quora.com/

Kim’s Email: beaversbin2021@gmail.com

Bella Zimmerman

holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole Darby

presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Hosts: Kim Beavers, Bella Zimmerman, and Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

The Antisocial Borderline: A Raw Conversation with Josef

Wed, 05 Jun 2024 09:00:25 GMT

In today’s episode, we introduce a crisis story: Josef's personal experience, narrated by himself. Nicole and Bella talked to another mental health warrior, Josef, and they had a healthy and open conversation about his diagnosis, support as a POC and member of the LGBTQIA+ community, and how mental health affects incarceration and relationships.

Guest:

Josef

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/theantisocialborderline

Email: theantisocialborderline@gmail.com

Quora:https://www.quora.com/profile/The-Antisocial-Borderline?ch=17&oid=1115749301&share=bf6a6dd7&srid=u2KZkC&target_type=user

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:07 Trigger Warning
1:30 Intro to Josef & Crisis His Story
1:59 Josef's Personal Crisis Story (Narrated by Himself)

(Beginning of Interview)

4:48 A Introduction to Josef
7:27 The Backstory: Support for BPD on Quora and The Antisocial Borderline
10:51 The Stigma of BPD and The Challenges
17:03 Acceptance of BPD Amongst Communities
21:15 Advice to Younger Self
23:54 Dating as a pwBPD (Person with BPD)
30:42 Safe Spaces as a POC and Member of the LGBTQIA+ community
36:42 Mental Health and Incarceration, and How They Affect One Another
50:30 Love Letter to BPD
55:15 Josef’s Last Words

(End of Interview)

57:15 Closing Statement from Bella and Nicole
58:07 BPD Daily Mantra
58:24 Outro
59:41“Breathe” by Timi: https://youtu.be/QLvYE1ZBru8?si=LmYqAVIwvh2VJEyb

Episode Resources:

APA‘s Article about “Decriminalizing Mental Illness and Promoting Mental Health Equity”: https://tinyurl.com/DecriminalizingMentalIllness

Website, support group, free career coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Hosts:

Bella Zimmerman

bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Nicole Darby

presspause4grace@gmail.com

Credits:

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Unpacking Childhood Trauma: A Coaching Session

Wed, 29 May 2024 10:01:32 GMT

In today’s deeply insightful and thought-provoking episode, engage in a deeply reflective coaching session where they explore the intricate layers of childhood trauma, the intricate interplay of cultural influences, the complexities of conditional love, and the profound ways in which these elements shape and influence their mental well-being and daily experiences.

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of The Discussion Between Nicole and Bella)

2:00 A Conversation How Trauma Affects Everyday Life
9:02 I Wish my Family Understood This About Me...
14:03 An Outside Perspective on Different Families
15:55 A Child’s Responsibilities, Mistakes, Feelings, and Wants
31:20 Culture: Mental Health, Shame, and Outside Perspectives
34:27 Relationships and Connection Between Children and their Parents
48:44 Conditional Love and New Experiences
1:00:42 Childhood Healing and Pleasant Memories
1:15:06 Last Word

(End of The Discussion Between Nicole and Bella)

1:13:02 Closing Statement from Bella and Nicole
1:15:10 Outro
1:16:28 “I Might Do Something Wrong” (Osunlade Lonely Mix) by Tortured Soul: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGtiD9iLYoY

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Bi-Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Bella Zimmerman

Email: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Website: holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole Darby

https://invisiblelines.quora.com/

Free BPD Support Resources and Bi-weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Bella Zimmerman and Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

Term of The Day, Tool Time & Mindful Moment: Featuring Bella Zimmerman & Kim Beavers

Wed, 22 May 2024 10:01:03 GMT

In today's enlightening episode, we introduce a new segment, Tool Time featuring BPD Warrior Kim Beavers, where we provide tools to navigate and process your emotions. We explore the term of the day, mindfulness, and delve into its transformative benefits. Stay tuned for soul-soothing meditation led by Bella, crafted to harmonize your body, spirit, soul, and mind, helping you gain insights into your emotions. Join us for an enriching journey of self-discovery and inner peace!

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro

(Beginning of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

1:35 Tool Time With Kim Beavers
3:36 What’s Today's Tool?
4:26 Mind-ful-ness and Gratitude
10:20 Review: The Me Test

(End of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

12:32 Term of The Day: Mindfulness

(Beginning of Mindfulness and Meditation)

13:37 Mindfulness and Its Benefits
18:25 The Mindful Moment/Meditation

(End of Mindfulness and Meditation)

24:51 Closing Statement from Nicole
25:13 Daily Mantra
25:29 Outro
26:42 “Free Mind” – Tems: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=tQiNQL-FEgU&si=h3oAXYLrfQR1SK3j

Episode Resources:

Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
- Bi-Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Connect With Hosts

Kim’ Beavers

beaversbin2021@gmail.com

Bella Zimmerman

bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole Darby

presspause4grace@gmail.com

Free BPD Support Resources and Bi-weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

Credits:

Hosts: Kim Beavers, Bella Zimmerman, and Nicole Darby

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

A Heartwarming Account of What It's Like to Love Someone with BPD from Author Dr. Gregory Serfer

Wed, 15 May 2024 09:55:11 GMT

In today’s episode, we begin with a compelling excerpt from Dr. Gregory Serfer’s book, "I Am Still Right Here". Nicole and Bella sit down with Dr. Serfer to have a healthy conversation about his book and his experience of being in a relationship with a person with BPD (pwBPD). They reflect on ways to destigmatize BPD and provide advice and encouraging words to a pwBPD and their partners, friends, and family.

Guest:

Dr. Gregory Serfer

Email: contact@gregoryserfer.com

Book: I Am Still Right Here: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

Qoura: https://www.quora.com/profile/Gregory-Serfer

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
0:58 Trigger Warning
1:21 Excerpt of Chapter 1 of I Am Still Right Here

(Beginning of Interview)

6:38 Introduction of Dr. Gregory Serfer
11:04 The Creation of I Am Still Right Here
15:30 Qualities/Traits of BPD in Relationships
23:09 Practitioners' Attitude towards BPD and Personality Disorders
24:38 BPD Doesn't Define a Person
26:03 Idolization, Invalidation, and Disregard in BPD
37:03 Understanding Transient Feelings
45:08 Resilience in BPD
51:06 Suggestions for Stressful Medical Environments
1:04:16 Love Letter to BPD
1:06:40 Final Thoughts
Dr. Serfer's Final Words

(End of Interview)

1:14:33 Outro
1:18:03 "Thinking Less" by Sinead Harnett Music: https://tinyurl.com/SineadHarnettMusic

Connect with the Hosts:

Bella Zimmerman

Email: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

Website: holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

Nicole

Credits:

Hosts: Bella Zimmerman and Nicole

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

Podcast Producer: Nicole

Research Team: Nicole & Tamar Brignolle

Website Resources:

Bi-weekly Support Group (Wed): https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

Support The Show:

Pandora, Amazon Music, Samsung Podcasts, iHeartRadio, Listen Notes

The "Why" Behind the Podcast Title

Wed, 08 May 2024 13:49:04 GMT

In this episode, we discuss the inception of our podcast title, "I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right," and feature an interview with our host, Nicole (AKA Sasha Fearce), conducted by her friend of 35 years Aseelah El-Amin. Nicole shares her journey as a BPD warrior, shedding light on the stigmas surrounding BPD, and how the diagnosis can impact personal journeys and relationships.

In this episode, you will hear:

0:00 Intro
1:11 Sensitive Content Warning
1:21 BPD Episode: Crying in the Parking Lot

(Beginning of Interview)

Intro
How Did You Come Up with the Title, I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right?
Who is Sasha Fearce?
Misdiagnosis and Confirmation of BPD
The Origin of BPD Diagnosis
Does the Diagnosis Matter?
Is There a Way to Prevent BPD?
How Can You Decipher Between BPD Episodes and Everyday Emotions?
When Do You Disclose BPD in New Relationships?
Once You Disclose, What is the Ideal Response?

(End of Interview)

BPD Daily Mantra
Podcast Outro
Music feature “Free” by Stephanie Mills: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QF4k5qPy-eM

Episode Resources:

- Bi-weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

- Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

- Crisis Hotline - Call or text 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org

Connect with the Host:

Nicole Darby